"AHA" MOMENT

While having a discussion on-line with my ex-sister-in-law ON THE POWER OF FORGIVENESS ,it came to me that WE ALL HAVE FORGIVENESS ISSUES, SOMETIMES SO CLOSE,THAT WE DON`T WANT TO DEAL WITH IT....my major forgiveness issue is with my MOTHER......I didn`t realize this until one day my minister and i were talking and i told her i had a fantastic childhood and she told me that i couldn`t have,I asked her why and she said, your first memory was rejection (mother giving u up) so although u think u had a fantastic childhood your life since shows you have rejection issues,she asked if i wanted her to help me work through them,and i said yes and she sat down and explained how i had acted out my rejection issues .....It blew my mind as i could see all the SETTING UP MYSELF FOR WHAT I THOUGHT WAS CERTAIN REJECTION I HAD DONE THROUGH MY ENTIRE LIFE .......plus i had watched enough "oprah " moments to know that most of our adult issues were caused by childhood moments ,some we have no conscious memories of .............But they r there deep in our subconciousness.
As she went through moment by moment, issue by issue i had such an awakening, and i must say it
helped me on my path to understanding why i reacted in a certain way to certain things....... now there was a reason and to KNOW is everything, as once the fog is cleared from your path ,your journey is easier.
CUT TO THE REAPPEARANCE OF MY HEALTH ISSUES LAST YEAR........
I CALLED MY BIRTH(I was about to use the word real,but isn`t your real mother the one that loved and nurtured u through thick and thin?) MOTHER WHILE I WAS HOME RECOVERING FROM SURGERY AND TOLD HER,THE CANCER HAD COME BACK .........WHY I WILL NEVER KNOW, I GUESS REMANTS OF MOTHER ISSUES..SHE MADE A HUGE BROUHAHHA ,WITH MUCH EXCLAMATION ETC.AFTER THAT SHE ASKED DO I WANT HER TO COME?( BUT SHE DOESN`T HAVE A PASSPORT )OR DO I WANT TO COME (SHE LIVES IN FLORIDA AND REMEMBER I CAN`T TRAVEL)....is there anything she can do?......and the most important statement .
"I fell on my face last week"and launched into a long drama on how she fell while making her bed and her face is in a state ,she THOUGHT many bones were broken, and on and on and on and on........by the time she was finished that story,it was far bigger than mine....... There was only one word to say .....GOOD-BYE.
WHAT A RELIEF......THE LESSONS.....
1)FORGIVE....... she is operating from her level of consciousness,so why have her up in your heart?and if somebody contributes NOTHING TO YOUR LIFE, U DON`T NEED THEM IN YOUR LIFE...........I had a wonderful mother and father, my adopted parents,the reason why I had such a "wonderful childhood" and i have great memories so ............ I needed to move on ..........
2) I had to see the positives..........She gave me up for adoption,INSTEAD OF SEEING IT AS REJECTION OF HER NOT WANTING ME I HAD TO TURN IT AROUND TO HER LOVING ME SO MUCH SHE WANTED WHAT WAS BEST FOR ME THEREFORE SHE GAVE ME TO A COUPLE WHO COULD GIVE ME WHAT SHE WAS UNABLE TO GIVE ME ......and what was that?
LOVE AND AFFECTION.... STABILITY, AND A LIFE THAT SHE COULDN`T OFFER ME THEN........As a young woman just starting out and having a baby for a married man who wasn`t supporting her she didn`t have a lot of options ...I listen to a lot of people who say if they have a child no matter what, they r staying together even if they have to be sleeping in the bus shelter.......yes love is everything,BUT HOW MANY OF US CAN GIVE LOVE WHEN SLEEPING IN A BUS SHELTER WITH CRYING HUNGRY CHILDREN.......
THINK ABOUT IT!
yes i`m talking to me...............

SO...SO......NEGATIVE

WHY DO WE ALWAYS HAVE TO BE SO NEGATIVE?
Why is the first thing out of our mouth NO.......... NEGATIVE.........
I feel sick,I don`t have any money,I can`t ,I don`t know,if u go that way they r going to take u away,the dollar is worthless and on and on.....my favourite one recently,is us, making rain a negative.
If we were having a drought it would be all good and positive...........Do we not know that behind every rain cloud the sun is still shining away....THINK ABOUT THAT....
One of my staff told me yesterday that he was very sickly ,"honest mrs. wright i sickly a way, a because u nuh know"
what don`t I know? I know that he must be sick with an attitude like that.... here is a fabulous looking healthy young boy 19years old,calling down sickness on himself.........Everything makes them sick..rain falls on them they "catch a cold"
They really catch it as I can`t imagine how they got it?
How come I don`t catch a cold and I am walking in the same rain as them?
I notice my first thing to say is "u so fool" as a term of endearment...what is that saying to the universe about this person that i claim to care about......." u r an idiot is another one,u r an ass yet another.....well,
Just like how i need to be conscious of what i`m saying we all need to be aware of the words we put out into the universe.
"I have no money"... we are all rich children of God how can we not have money?Not because we can`t see it with the naked eye means it is not there for us...try knowing its there and see what happens...... Remember money comes from the most unexpected places when u need it,and sometimes we limit ourselves by asking for a specific amout ...Don`t do that!
Just state" I am buying this house."Do not say i need 5 million to buy a house.
Put it out there knowing its taken care of. U can even thank the father for it.
Once u KNOW , trust me,its on its way to u ........if u really don`t BELIEVE..... It will never happen....Only thing is some of us want it on OUR time not GOD`S time.....Let me tell u God`s time is the RIGHT TIME...if we get it on our time we can`t hold what ever it was we wanted...... we just need to wait,
EVERY THING IN TIME...................
Thats why rich people get richer.They KNOW........ they have no DOUBT........they know if they lose it all tomorrow they can rise again. In fact wasn`t it the right attitude to life that caused them to manifest wealth in the first place???
Talk to any young billionaire,listen to what they say.......We have too much fear ,and what is that?
F E A R-FALSE EVIDENCE APPEARING REAL............
we get caught up in all the seeming appearances........Remember I told u in an earlier blog that JOEL OSTEEN SAYS EVERY DAY WE HAVE A CHOICE........
Well everyday I get up and KNOW that I`m perfectly whole and complete.......If I gave in to how I feel some mornings I would never get out of bed......... Therefore I would miss out on so much of LIFE.............
choose LIFE.......choose HEALTH.....choose WEALTH..........CHOOSE LOVE..

FOOD

Since thanksgiving I have been listening to everybody discuss what they have eaten over the weekend and I realize that the drug companies must LOVE these food holidays. They see that we have have set ourselves up to be sicker next year... therefore making them richer in the years to come.
U know my holistic practitioner has a favourite quote,he says" we r digging our graves with our teeth ,"
But now that i`m aware i realize we really r.......he is perfectly correct...watching people around me,with the fried dumplings and french fries.....they don`t even know what kind of oil is being used, I`m appalled......I have to wonder if I was really that bad ,guess what? I was.
The fattier the better ,protein was the order of the day.meat- meat- meat.....7 pepsi`s a day........vegetables?whats that?
Then we start to eat properly and think eating salads r the best thing and we throw brocolli into our salad only to hear it musn`t be eaten raw unless its grated as there r mustard gases present in the florets so if u steam them they will be released if u eat them raw and they r not grated the gases r undigestable so they cause flatulence ,uspset stomach etc ......
So I throw tomato in my salad not realizing I am B blood type and tomato,avocado,coconut ,not for me........LOTS TO LEARN..... people like me who r survivors of cancer must keep our bodies alkaline as the reason we have cancer is because our bodies became too acidic, we ate too much protein and sugar so the BIG C. moves in and cleans up...
Going out to eat now is a trip... I went to a party on the weekend and left when the most delicious food from MARBLU was put out.Can u imagine leaving that? I have to ..its called DISCIPLINE..new concept for me ....trying to learn the lesson 'INSTANT GRATIFICATION DOESN`T PAY OFF IN THE LONG RUN"
My friend who had his 60th birthday party is the first person that I learnt the lesson that one doesn`t have to go to church on sunday and sprout u mouth daily, all u need to do is live your life according to the universal laws and all will be well..........I love watching him enjoy life he always has....... if there is a dance floor, thats where u will find him,always the life of the party practicing his principles......if u give u must receive ,believe in yourself,love , love love............
BUT,he is one that enjoys too much of the" good life" he needs to heed the warnings....GOUT was the first one.......
our body always send out signs ....listen.........
I understand more than anybody else how awful it is to eat the "taste bad" vegetables and they tell u eat greens and drink green juice but we steam the greens or throw it in juice and want to vomit......so we go back to square one.
Lots of ways to make greens palatable I`m finding....... for example do u know okra is delicious raw ? All of u who don`t like the slime ,I have been informed that the slime is supposed to form in our bodies not in the pot......so cut it up and put it in your salad ,its delicious, so crisp....u wouldn`t believe.
Most important thing now is reading labels.........I bought seasoning the other day and when i got home i had to throw it out it had MSG in it...I wouldn`t even give it away as I want no one eating that.....read read read.............and remember if u r eating raw u cannot eat food thats full of pesticides etc... buy organic or grow your own........chemicals is your enemy...I want no one telling me eating like that is expensive as the doctors cost much more than the food I can assure u.
The answer is to season your food, garlic, escellion,pepper.....Try herbs, the oregano and the parsley,basil etc.....thats what they do,add flavour, and each has its own set of properties that help your health....... throw away the sodas and the sugar filled fruit juices......vegetable juice can be flavoured with cane juice and apples..... white cabbage is not considered greens same with iceberg lettuce...... the darker the shade green the better it is for u.....Think kale.
There is a lot to be learned,do your research.
Green is not only the colour of money, its the colour of health ........ ENJOY......

LIFE

when faced with the fact that u might not have long in this world what r the things that run through your mind........let me tell u as one who was given 2 weeks to live in 1978................ u make a list of all the things u want to do.
I`m going to take time to do what i really want to do...... take vacation and go to the places i always wanted to visit......I`m going to be a better person,i`m going to love more ,get angry less.....I`m going to spend more time with my only child........I`m going to stop and smell the roses......... and on and on........
Well in reality I took 6 mths off and when I returned to work and realized that I was going to beat this thing called cancer......... I never stopped till 28 years later when the father reminded me that the life that i was taking for granted,stressing myself and gone back to eating jerk pork , can be taken from me in the twinkling of an eye.................................
so this time what do u do.
U REALLY STOP AND SMELL THE ROSES.........u do what U want to do WHEN U want to do it........U really r a better person........U let nothing bother u,therefore there is nothing to get angry at...U motivate and u give back ..........u deal with QUALITY INSTEAD OF QUANTITY OF LIFE...........U LOVE MORE AND U R SERIOUS ABOUT IT....... u avoid stressful situations...... U make sure u spend time with your grandchild no matter that she lives in a foreign land...............THIS PRECIOUS TIME MUST NOT BE TAKEN FOR GRANTED............
Remember among the same people who r clamoring for your attention now at major cost to your health and the lifestyle u have chosen, u will only be 9 day talk .........after they put u in the ground LIFE GOES ON.........without u..........if it can`t be done today there is tomorrow , if u drop dead doing it today isn`t it going to be done tomorrow anyway and the same thing u thought only u could do won`t someone else be doing it?
TOMORROW IS PROMISED TO NO ONE......USE YOUR TIME ON THIS EARTH WISELY.

PRAYER

Have u noticed that the poorer the person the more religious they r........they live in church, and they do whatever the" parson "says...........I used to wonder when I was a child how come the people who worked around my house prayed non-stop and stayed poor......I used to ask my mother about it all the time as I was told God always answers prayers, and I didn’t see their’s being answered....Then I said maybe its because they r praying to Jesus instead of God......
As an adult I came to realize that they pray beseeching prayers….. God please give me a house, please give me food, make me well, make me rich, make my children do well and on and on...and lots of amens and alleluias........not to mention jumping up and down” in the spirit"
well once u pray begging ,the lord can’t help u, so u going to stay where u are.................
u must pray knowing ....and be prepared to do the work....most of us think its is going to come like manna from the skies, notice I didn’t say heaven as we always think God is coming from heaven up there somewhere. heaven and hell is right here, u make your own heaven and u make your own hell right here on earth, u don’t need to go anywhere to experience it.............
Then a lot of us pray but don’t listen so after talking to the father or mother, whatever God is to u...... and putting out your goals , u don’t listen to the advice as to how u going to arrive at your destination............
Prayers also is only done on your knees morning and evening in dead quiet and the bible has to be open or u r not praying...
well news to me...............
I pray anytime day or night and on my long trips I have lots of time to converse with the father ......the two most important things in praying r forgiveness and gratefulness.........we have to stay in gratitude so we cannot only pray morning and evening as so much happens to us all day we have to be saying thanks right through the day............If good happens u thank the father and if seemingly bad happens u still have to thank the father as there is a lesson to be learnt so u do not walk that way again.
I once went to church one Sunday and on leaving a lady was coming in the other direction and wanted to bore her way through the gate before allowing me to come through….The security called me through and as I passed she told me some of the biggest bad words known to man ….our windows were down so I looked at her and I went into shock as it was a lady that had sat across from me in service shouting the most amens and "praises be to God” right through the service. She obviously heard nothing that was preached as less than fifteen minutes later she was putting negatives out to the universe. I’m sure her week could not have gone well…..
we have to remember whatever we put out comes right back to us and now it comes by” concord"...not horse and buggy.......
clear your heart and your life will clear up...stop carrying people in your heart as while u r stewing up yourself they r off to the beach having the time of their lives....... If u don’t forgive u block your good u cannot move forward….
Love is the only way, know what u want, really know what u want, not what u think u should want….
Too many of us r heading in directions we think is the right direction but deep down in our gut we know is the wrong way….
ask the father to guide your path and tell u how to reach where u really want to go, as your way might have some twists and turns,God’s way has none.......and be quiet, listen, and when ur instinct tells u what to do, do it!
That’s God talking to u...........we always say if I only had followed my mind .that mind that is talking to u is God telling u what to do............enjoy your path remember ,life is a journey not a destination.............

GIVING ALWAYS WORKS

The only show still worth watching r the AMA`S and last night JAMAICA "sell off"........those of us who watched it must be terribly proud but as usual I got a lesson.
ALICIA KEYES came to Jamaica to perform at the Air Jamaica jazz festival...she obviously had a great time as in the hotel world we heard what a regular girl she was no airs and prima donna behaviour..she had her birthday during her time here, and i remember in her interview her saying how great it was and who she met.Forward to her remix of baby cham (now known as cham" "SURVIVAL STORY",which wowed the music business and found Cham on regular rotation on BET and VH1.......I don`t see much music on MTV any more, but maybe he was there too.....forward to last night JUNIOR REID, CHAKADEMUS AND PLIERS...BEENIE MAN ........3 MORE GIVEN THE CHANCE OF A LIFETIME.........she could have taken the spotlight by her self and still wowed us as her song is #1 but NO, she SHARED........
GIVERS WILL ALWAYS BE #1 IN THIS WORLD............

VANITY

The mother of Kanye West has shown us the rewards of vanity.....a sensational looking 58 year old woman....educationally very sound.
Can somebody please tell me why a tummy tuck?....there r so many things sold in the lingerie dept. to give u a tuck why would she need such a severe method at her age................ Plus she was warned!
Maybe because after 23 surgeries I wouldn`t take any surgery that is not life or death.........this frivolous going under the knife I have to wonder about..........I looked at a picture of me recently and wondered who was that with that saggy face and thick waist? where had Pat gone? Then I realized i wasn`t 30 any longer and gravity has set in.
How many of us wonder who is this when we look in the mirror as we get older?
I look around at those of us who have liposucked and tummy tucked and still ate themself back into needing another round.......plus with the face is there any guarantee that we black that don`t crack won`t get keloid?.....
Its just not worth it.
I will keep my saggy face.........the face u have in your 50`s is the face u have earned,and i will buy the "SPANX," the lingerie departments` temporary tummy tuck......Anyway, why at 50 would i want to look like 30?
I love when i say my age and watch the shock on peoples faces.
Its good to be a great 55 not a "want to look 30" 55....
But, by the same token we don`t need to let ourselves go and have the bicycle tyres turning into truck tyres around our waist ,although, young girls in their late twenties have truck tyres and flaps of meat hanging over their bra straps too.
If keeping your body looking a certain way is important to u,care it,so u won`t need the knife.
What we really need is SPIRITUALITY, as once we r spiritually tuned we understand that its not the outside its the INSIDE ......
Recently it has come to light that Marcus Garvey was into "new thought" in otherwords he was a truth student.
Those of us who r truth students ourselves, would have realized that when we started to read about him. As, how could this short stocky black man who didn`t seem to have much in the looks department, behave like royalty and dress like royalty in those days.
He had to have some serious confidence to do this, and then ,cause THOUSANDS of people to "rise up" and believe in their blackness .............Its called BELIEVING IN YOURSELF, and that comes with KNOWING who u r.......Those of us who don`t KNOW who we r constantly run into problems.......

EAT RIGHT

why does eating the wrong thing make u eat more of the wrong thing......its amazing.......but the reason is, once we eat wrong our body gets off track so we keep craving the wrong things, like sugar after a slice of chocolate cake,or salt after a bag of pretzels .
If u want to live a healthy life u have to eat a certain way.................once u make up your mind to do so,here comes the temptation.... stewpeas with pigstail,fried chicken,cheetos,pretzels,jerkpork and on and on...... do u know cheetos has MSG in it ? no wonder it tastes so good.
So all these years we have been feeding our children a steady diet of MSG....... we go to the chinese restaurant and say we want no MSG in our food then go home and have a bag of cheetos as we sit in front of the TV.........too funny.......since i have started reading labels,a lot has been revealed......its all there we just don`t read...........and now we have some knowledge of what we should and shouldn`t eat, we don`t want to know .
can u imagine eating fruit and veg. for the rest of your life?no jerk pork............no steak and mashed potatoes....... its not easy, but it has to be done........a friend of mine with diabetes says if she has to eat like that to live she might as well die, and diabetes is certainly controlled by food,so i`ll have one sick or dead friend as her mind is made up.
I now eat according to my blood type so things like peanuts which i used to eat a bowl of nightly, are now a no no, but i can eat almonds. They have to be soaked for 12 hours so they r" live" food and not raw food........so i eat them by the bag only to hear its too much protein so i must eat 7 almonds a day .who eats 7 almonds a day/??!!?
I understand we eat around 80% protein per day and we r to eat 4 % protein. I must have ate 100% protein before the big C.
I`m a protein girl....
Eating properly is the best thing we can do to lead a healthy life.Excercising is a close second It makes no sense our body leaves us before its time to leave this earth plane. BUT both of those things were not on my to do list so no wonder I`m where I am.........cancerpatient x2...... We need to stop using our teeth to dig our graves as sometimes we don`t go straight into the grave we r dead but right here above ground ...........thats called suffering and we don`t need that.......
we need to know that now we r living longer.....we have to live a better quality of life, so we need to put in our preventative measures,and diligently follow them......
Have u noticed that when people r on their last lap they start eating raw food and juicing and take a plane to mexico to get cleansed........guess what guys........too late !
if u r dying having a cleanse is the worse thing u can do to yourself as by then u r too weak and your immune system shot .....so clean up now while u r healthy,get all that nastiness out.......all that plastic, like margarine that is sitting in your intestines and can`t move..........Try to get it out...eat right and excercise....lifting the tv remote is not lifting weights and going to the fridge to take out ice cream is not excercise ,and the next time u r watching tv count how many ads r on about the lastest in medication........the drug companies r everywhere and they love u......everyone tells me it costs too much to eat healthy organic food ....think about it...........is it cheaper to have an MRI?

LOVE/the dash

"love may not make the world go round but it sure makes the ride worthwhile"
If LOVE had been used in that incident with the man from Poland in the Vancouver airport,would his mother be mourning today?
when somebody does not speak our language,why do we always react negatively? why can`t we use the universal language of the world..... LOVE .
why do we always use hate or anger? don`t we know that the only thing to diffuse anger is love?

U know the most important thing on a tombstone is not the years or the words.
The most important thing is the dash between the years,(1942-2007)as how passionately u live your dash is the most important thing u can do while being on this earth.
Have u made your mark? have u made your TIME FROM BIRTH TO DEATH MEAN something? have u made your ride worthwhile?could u have used Love more?How will u be remembered?
yes, u were loved by your immediate family,but what about outside of that,how did u help ? did u give back?were u a giver or a taker?
Tim Blixseth, billionaire owner of "yellowstone club " a group of high end resorts, says if clothes and material things define u, u r undefined...........he also says we don`t know how long we have on this earth as life is so short, so we should make everyday count..........how true, I have always felt,a day doing nothing is a day wasted..........LETS NOT WASTE OUR PRECIOUS TIME.

LOST GENERATION?

Today I read an e-mail about Bill Cosby and his campaign about black people and the fact that their children are their dirty linen ,and how upset people r about that. Bill Cosby talks about Parenting on Oprah
I just can`t get it out my head how not only the lower classes but all classes of black people have dropped the ball.......when my 30 year old was in his teens if he was playing music and a cuss word came on or something derogatory to women ,he would immediately switch the station or forward the tape or cd,now my 18 year old sees nothing wrong with it and drives merrily while the nastiest songs comes through the speakers as he listens to what he considers music......well the minute i hear them i eject and break them up ...that kind of nastiness will not be played in my space,not my car ,not my house.........how many parents do that?...........A lot of what our children do is because their peers do it and get away with it,so they do it thinking they can get away with it too....... today somebody told me i behave as if i`m perfect because i expect a certain of level of behaviour from my children........sorry, i think thats the difference between being dragged up and being brought up.
Thats why children nowadays shut your hard earned car door with their feet,they feel its easy come ,easy go.......they drive your car but can`t clean it,they don`t care it,but think driving it is their divine right ............,we need to stop allowing that.....stop buying children $150 sneakers when they can neither count to 150 or spell one hundred and fifty............ babies nowadays get so many gifts at these huge birthday parties thats its obscene ...........wouldn`t that money be better spent on giving to children less fortunate and teaching our little princes and princesses the lesson of giving ........they speak to us anyway,chores is a thing for mothers and fathers,taking out the trash is a foreign language.............. they do no schoolwork,as no one checks, we r too busy getting on with our life not knowing what a dysfunctional kid can DO TO OUR lives..........The New York Times said today that having an adolescent at home is the thing that causes the most unhappiness in households.....thats all races.can u imagine that?...........
In Jamaica when we were children the village raised us if someone came to our mothers with bad behaviour they saw from us on the street we would surely get it, now when someone reports bad behaviour on the streets they r told off in no uncertain terms or beaten to a pulp.
In some cases your life is on the line if u dare to reprimand a child,so the village allows them to run wild,why have our lives threatened for somebody elses child ..............
Being poor is no excuse,so is it the Americanization of Jamaica ? Is it a lack of education?Is it only black people ?is it only one class ? is it all classes ,all colours?is there a lost generation ? one thing for sure at the rate we r going ,our dirty linen will continue to be our daily statistics .........and it so happens they ARE majority black.

the big C

Well as I told u a few days ago I did my regular tests for my birthday.The ones from my new doctor (a MD,that has chosen alternative medicine)not so good,but I have to understand that I almost checked out of the "life motel" last year...... so the body is still acidic, the liver not so good,the blood cells stacking instead of free standing ........disappointing ,but expected .
My holistic practitioner has told me minimum 2 years,but I felt that after almost a year of eating everything I dislike ,I should be showing signs of alkalinity, but no .........
The positive side is, I`m not deteriorating and the doctors comment is"for u to be doing this by yourself u r doing great"........
Over to my oncologist,all marks great....BUT the one that thrills me most ,along with my cancer mark ,is.......haemoglobin 14.5.........I`VE NEVER HAD A HB OF 14.5........... FROM A LOW OF 4 TO A HIGH OF 8 IS MY NORM.
can u imagine 14.5?
I just couldn`t contain myself I was so happy to get that news......i`ve been exceedingly tired of late ,and thats part of cancer ..........living with the knowledge that at anytime the other shoe can drop.............. if I was not a cancer patient I would just think "ah well I`ve been working hard of late and just went to new york for a weekend and i`m not 21 anymore so I should be tired.".........instead I wonder "what if ?"
Anyway its not" what if?" its another year down and we will give thanks and attack the next one(year that is)........
When at 24 i got cancer for the first time it was the "aids" of that time and just like "aids" the ignorant behaved accordingly, they scorned u........... ....those days the only thing that accompained the BIG C was fear and dread.........but what is fear? FALSE EVIDENCE APPEARING REAL.. ........ so ,whats the point of fear?.......... as ,if its good, great ..........and if its bad its a lesson to be learnt......just like with worry which normally accompanies fear...........If u can change what u r worrying about u don`t need to worry and if u can`t change it u worse don`t need to worry.............
So here I am ,28 years later and THE BIG C comes calling again..........why?how?what for?
Knowing u won the fight the last time makes u confident......u know the moves,its familiar territory. But u also know each time the enemy comes calling ,it comes with a bigger price tag.
when i decided to write a blog I didn`t want to write the typical cancer blog.....
I had chemo today/my hair fell out/ I felt nauseous/my family was upset and supportive/my doctors were marvellous/I turned to the Lord and he pulled me through and on and on......
What I wanted was to let u know that there is a reason one gets cancer and there can be a positive side to it........... sometimes instead of it being a death sentence its a wake up call............
How many of us r lucky to get a warning so we don`t die without a will and get to put our business together ....i`ve sat through so many bad funerals that I know if the people who they were for had a choice they wouldn`t have done that to us..............
PLUS THERE R LOTS OF POSITIVE THINGS U CAN DO
instead of being obsessed with quantity of life, be obsessed with quality of life ........
instead of digging your grave with your teeth choose life and live food
instead of wasting each day make each day count ............
instead of choosing hate ,choose love ,no one can quarrel while u r sending love
instead of having people up in your heart,choose forgiveness...........
IN OTHERWORDS ENJOY WHATEVER LIFE U HAVE,PUT LIFE OUT TO THE UNIVERSE,INSTEAD OF FOCUSING ON DEATH!

ms Dawn

BIRTHDAYS MEANS FRIENDS , and friends bring me to a special friend that i`ve had for years .......she is such a special soul that I have to tell u all about her. I saw her on my birthday and it came to me how much I love her.........she is the only friend that I have that wears green or purple lipstick and/ or lipliner with such aplomb ,that u think its simply gorgeous and wonder how u would look in it........ .put that with a bright green skirt, a yellow tank and a white jacket with pink and red flowers ,of course the flowers have green stalks Did i tell u her fingernails are always perfectly patterned and lets not leave out the toes..... now a days the shoes,make them flat, but colour is the name of the game......
I know I forgot to tell u her hair is bright red.......... with her the brighter the better......... Her dress is as colourful as her personality,and what a personality .......
The first time I saw her was at a prizegiving at St. Hugh`s High school........both herself and her sister had on dresses made of lace........YES they STOOD out....... we all had on white ,but 2 girls in full white lace well thats another story.And me ,being highly fashion conscious from then,wanted to know who they were ............
The point is,with all her color and style the most important thing about her is she has a heart made of gold......... for family she is always on and beyond the call of duty, for friends she is always willing to run the extra mile,sometimes on and beyond the call of duty too...SHE ALWAYS KNOWS SOMEONE THAT KNOWS SOMEONE IF SHE DOESN`T KNOW THEM HERSELF.............
my son has never heard no from her ,but she doesn`t take no from him either..........she is the kind of friend that the saying "good friends better than pocket money" is made for.......... if you are in kingston unable to move and your child is coming in at montego bay airport u call ms. Dawn ,there is no doubt he will be picked up...........
I am very fortunate to have a few of those kind of friends, those that will always run the extra mile for me, and know the meaning of the word FRIEND...........but none will be running that mile with as much colour and style,and none of us will have on something bright with a couple strands of beads around the neck and wrist........ multicoloured and supersized of course.......and in the latest coach sneakers............

BIRTHDAY

Birthday came and left.....lessons learnt ..I AM LOVED...not many people have the choice of not answering their phone because the amount of phone calls meant nothing would get done for the day besides listening to people singing"HAPPY BIRTHDAY"
I thank each and everyone of u.......love u back........u make my life more than special and although some of u can`t sing thanks and those that harmonized so beautifully........it made my morning.....thanks again.......brings me to talk about choices today...
life is about choices ,just as how somebody commented on my last blog that u can choose to have the sun with u where ever u go ,yesterday ,my birthday gave me the lesson of how important choices are............it started beautifully with all my well wishers calling ....went to a new doctor for more tests and scans, more on that in time,results were good ,not great but good,so its now time to return home to ocho rios.........the sun that i brought to kgn i obviously left there and rain followed me home coming down in bales ,mount rosser was blocked as usual ,so i took a bypass road, by the time i reached fern gully my tyre was in shreads....so i stopped at the nearest gas station in ocho rios to change it as the choice made was not to stop on the road in the rain......2 young men came out and announced with broad smiles ,"lady this is not your day"" why?" i asked, well they said" on top of u needing a tyre for the back there is a nail in one of the front ones."I came out and looked and saw that it was true so I informed him,"sorry it WAS my day, as it was my MY BIRTHDAY SO IT COULD ONLY BE A GOOD DAY".another choice made.
So there we were bantering and having fun while they changed the tyres, until the owner of the tyre place asked if I could spend the evening with them as they wanted "a pretty woman " to decorate the place for them .choice ,fun way to spend my birthday.
TURNS OUT I NEED 4 TYRES...........CHOICE , I CAN BE DOWN ABOUT IT AS ITS QUITE A PRETTY PENNY, OR I CAN GET ON WITH LIFE KNOWING THAT TYRES ARE ON THE WAY AS ITS MY BIRTHDAY SO ITS TIME TO GET USEFUL GIFTS .SO THERE IT IS,BIRTHDAY PRESENT YEAR 2007 4 NEW TYRES FOR MY CAR.......
COULD HAVE HAPPENED AT ANOTHER TIME WHEN IT WASN`T MY BIRTHDAY AND I WOULD HAVE HAD TO BUY THEM MYSELF
THANK U FATHER
ANOTHER GREAT YEAR DOWN,AND AN EVEN GREATER ONE AHEAD.

AFTER THE RAIN COMES THE SUN

sun,how important is it?
to jamaicans its life.......so many phone calls from depressed people this week ............"when is it going to stop raining ?"was the call......"now i know how people feel during the winter when its black all day"......lesson,u neva know di good of a ting till u lose it"
i`m sure i don`t need to translate that........
today dawned blue blue skies in ochi everyone in kingston revealing bleaky skies..can u imagine how mr. Golding feels..........he should ask PNP since they fought so hard for it to take it back........billions after Dean must be trillions now.......no roads .....as a friend of mine said yesterday "dem yah road caan fix"this one i`ll translate" these roads cannot be fixed"
but just think when the sun comes out how u going to appreciate and love it..........I guess living under a cancer shadow u take note of rain and sun more,as u realize u didn`t have to be here to experience either one.......so this morning one of the prettiest mornings i have ever seen i ask
why did i move to ocho rios??? i have always thought it was a most bleaky dingy place.......this past month it has been the sunniest most beautiful place to be..........lesson learnt .......when the father sends u somewhere ....go......

Another birthday rolling around , the last one I didn`t know I would be here to see this one,I will be here and it is going to be special.......another thing to appreciate ,good friends!